hey hey hey, does anyone know if the word “panamorous” already has a definition? because i really want to use it. it would be sort of inconsistent with polyamorous (because if it was consistent it would mean in a relationship with everyone, which is not what i mean!) but it feels right. i came up with it in my head in high school before i even knew that there were so many variations in sexuality and attraction, and that it is ok to put word stems together to make things feel right. i like that it sounds like “nebulous” and that is how i am attracted to people, in some sort of weird cloud with-varying-density-throughout way (i always come back to cloud metaphors in terms of my identity for some reason). i don’t feel comfortable with panromantic because the word “romantic” brings up a lot of connotations that i don’t like, and feels way too strict, and i don’t even know what it means anymore…welp, that feels good.